I always appear so strong on the outside but actually i'm so timid on the inside. Honestly, deep down i know that i'm a very emotional & sensitive guy. I can get affected by all the minor things that one can say about me. I'm affected when someone make some comments about me, I'm affected when someone doesnt keep their promises & i know i am petty, yes i do.
I appear so strong infront of many, so strong that i appear to be arrogant at times, so unapproachable that when someone wants to say hi they think twice if i would actually say hi back. Nobody knows that deep inside i don't have much confidence. It sounds so wrong when someone says to me : could you have more confidence? I've been a mentor to many, you could talk to me about anything under the sun & i would have a solution for you. But it just seems like i'm a failure because nothing really goes my way.
I think that i appear so arrogant sometimes that it is difficult to seek help. I look like someone who would never need help as i always have solutions. It's difficult to put my pride aside & confront those whom you've been a mentor to. I guess that guys don't really like to be counselled by others as when they do, it's when they proberly lost everything. Maybe that is the reason why i always keep things to myself.
Sometimes i just wish that i could really have someone to talk to when i need to, but the problem is I can't just tell my problems to anyone i see, it's the fear in me. I don't wanna lose everything. Someone told me i had strong willpower in life, let's just hope that i am gonna start living life soon.
Quote of the day: People do not lack strength, they lack will
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hey siao eh!hahah..dun be sad HOR!hahaha..as i says,there is always a next time..i believe you can do it next time round!=)
to me,you are a person that encourge people,many more and big brother towards RL..and definetly you're NOT arrogant neither you are a failure..haha..dun worry..you can call me anytime!lolx..hmm..TAKE CARE!=)and SMILE HOR..
-sinling
i guess i can empathize with u on the sensitive and emotional part cus i'm like that too...speaking up certainly doesn't mean u're weak..i think guys really like to bottle their feelings up,acting strong and unaffected..it makes others hard to guess and understand them when they want to..i learnt that sharing with u're loved ones do help to ease the burden on u're shoulders though it might not solve the problem but that's enuff rite:)being softer sometimes could make u happier but it might take some practice;)i hope you realise that problems and things you own are 2 different things..i don't think u can lose them so easily..or shall i say it's more tiring to hold on to so much? smilez k,can't? go feel the sea breeze,sure can smile after that:)btw,tot u have a gf..go talk or talk more to her lah!she's prob.the best person 4 u!hope u don't find me luosuo..all the best guy:)!! -fellow gemini-
hmm....i don;t know...inside of you..you have so many thought!!!...hahha....you are my bro lei...of course must be confident kkiess...
~`sMiLe aLwayS...
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